I miss the Vivian Girls // Songs of the Week

It's finally winter break! I'm loaded with homework/projects but I get to see my best friend in less than a week and my excitement is unfathomable. here's the music that has gotten me through the past few weeks:

As Luck Would Have It//Tom Rosenthal

 "As luck would have it I'm on the planet, and so it seems are you"

Whale//Yellow Ostrich

"We will go far into the blue" 

Chinese Translation//M.Ward

"if life is really as short as they say"

 Where Do You Run To//The Vivian Girls 

"It's alright, just leave the light on"

enjoy yourself, take a day off, and look at what's around you

A

 

bleh

today it rained all day and my whole town has been enveloped in a very twin peaks fog. normally I find comfort in this atmosphere, but today I just feel crushed by it. Fog isn't light, it's heavy. it swarms and consumes. it hides things and makes the path not as clear.

I'm going to college, that I know. But I want to go to a rigorous and challenging one, with people of the same mindset as me. while they're only one part of the application, having test scores on the lower end of the spectrum that my most loved schools accept scares me. college is scary, there's no certainties, and it's very much a lottery. most of my friends are seniors, and so all this talk about applications is rampant.

I know I'm going to college, but is it bad to want something more than that?

I watched this mini-documentary about the changing climate, and I'm not much of a nature hippie, but it made me cry. A few weeks ago I watched this documentary recommended by my chem teacher and I felt a weight on my chest. And I don't think I really figured out why I had that weight until yesterday: I don't want to spend my life in an office. for a while I think I was hell bent on this idea that I would work in international relations, because I've taken some related classes and I'm good at it, but an old friend reminded the other day: you shouldn't do stuff just because you're good at it, you should do it because you want to. I suddenly started researching completely different degrees than I had in the past, more science oriented ones, and I felt excited about college again.

deciding what you want to do with the rest of your life is hard, and I'm just coming to accept that.

sorry for this throw up of thought and negativity.

A

horchata season!

Life has been busy, and once more I list for reference.

Music

One Summer Night - Ariel Pink // the weather here right now makes me think summer is forever
1992 - Rejjie Snow // Slow and hazy rap for foggy mornings
Ghost Town - First Aid Kit // music to wake up to and feel fulfilled
This Year - The Mountain Goats // sheds light during even the most stressful times
Tangerine - Led Zeppelin // growing up my parents would always play classic rock, and this song seemed to be a favorite
Trains and Boats and Planes - Dionne Warwick // reminds me that while I'm stuck in the moment (love u jb), I'm still going places
Albums: Pure Heroine - Lorde and Blue Neighborhood - Troye Sivan

Quotes

"be in charge of your own light switch"
"There's no one smarter or more capable than you, there's only people who have studied more than you" - Terry Crews
"Scranton is the Paris of Northeastern Pennsylvania" - Michael Scott on The Office
"If you think about it, Trump is just political performance art" - my friend

TV Shows

MASTERS OF NONE. JUST LOVE YOURSELF AND WATCH IT. I came home from the SATs and watched the whole series (thirteen 30min episodes) in one go and it was the best decision ever. Everything from the cinematography to the script is spot on and my love for Aziz has never been greater. Also the soundtrack is perfect.

Articles

'It Doesn't Matter Where You Go to College': Inspirational, but Wrong - "actually getting into Princeton isn't as critical as being the type of person who could get into Princeton."

Kylie Jenner for Interview - "And I don't know, I like hiking. I used to do a lot of hiking when I wasn't as busy. I had a lot of anxiety when I was younger, so I would just run to this hill path in the back of my mom's house and listen to Jack Johnson. I would listen to Jack Johnson and stare at the sky until my anxiety went away."

'Paris Is A Party': Responding To Tragedy, France Turns To Hemingway - "we are a very ancient civilization"

Anything from ProPublica lately, especially this. 

The Elf on the Shelf is preparing your child to live in a future police state, professor warns - honestly don't know how I feel about this 

The nastier Donald Trump gets, the more some people like him - speaks on American consumerism and extremism!
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In less than 13 days I see my best friend in my favorite city and I could not be more excited.

Have a great week, break is almost here!

A